What an exciting morning!

Wow - so many topics I don't know where to begin!

I will start with the one that effects me most, or least (as the case may be).

My J is going to be a big sister today (if all goes well).

I don't harbor any ill will against The AH's wife and unborn son. My beef is only with him.

J isn't too thrilled with the idea. J is being bombarded with babies this month.

Though there were other babies born into our family since her birth 14 years ago they never actually effected her and her status as daughter and granddaughter.

Until now.

I know my family will take into account her sensitivity about the issue and include her in their joy. That's what she needs. If she feels shunned in anyway - she will automatically shutdown. That is her way. Spoiled? Maybe. I can only imagine what it feels like.

It all stems from her relationship with her father. There is a song out "Fathers be good to your daughters". This is so very true. Many a girl will become a stripper or marry older due to the relationships they have with their Dads. I swear it's true - I heard it on Howard Stern!

I guess it would be easy to tell her to get over it. That's life. Welcome to the real world. But - I would rather she not have to deal with the real world until she absolutely has to. I have to live with her. It's not easy to deal with the drama. So - I try to keep it at bay if possible.

I hope The AH - doesn't forget that he has made a recent commitment to J. He is making it possible for her to attend private school. Don't give him kudos yet. This is a recent issue because since our divorce he never made any child support payments. That was five years ago. Six months ago he stepped up. I don't think it will continue as I have already gotten the speech.

You know the one..."I have a new baby coming", "It's very hard for me right now to make ends meet", "My wife will quit working to take care of the baby, money will be tight."

I passed J over to a caregiver when she was 6 weeks old. I had to work. I feel no sympathy. Especially now that J is in a good school environment and I will fight tooth and nail to keep her there.

I have a lawyer just in case.

So the birth of his son is bittersweet. I am happy for his wife. This is her first. I am happy for him. He always wanted more children and now he has a son to pass on the family name.

All I have is hope.

Hope for the best - expect the worst.