I think I am a drunk

Therefore I am.

This is day 5 of my Atkins lifestyle. I have been doing great. Now with more Atkins / Carb friendly products on the market. I am not stuck with the same ol' thing everyday. Actually if you go and look on their website, the 2 week induction menu includes many items that were not available in grocery stores a year ago. For example, stuff like - low carb milk didn't exist two years ago.

I like to drink. I like to drink all kinds of things. You, of course, know my love for the bean and I am also a Diet Coke fanatic. I also like Ice Tea.

This is a caffeine addiction.

I know I have one and I know I am supposed to limit my intake of caffeinated products. So I have a cuppa coffee in the morning, a Diet Coke with lunch and Sugar Free Tea with dinner. All whilst drinking my gallon of water a day.

HB thought at one point I might be diabetic due to my constant thirst. I think its just my addiction to caffeine and the fact that I get cotton mouth because I am a smoker.

I also like a cocktail.

I generally had a cocktail at night when I would go home. Just one. I drank a little more on the weekends when I went out to dinner or sitting on the back patio with HB while he has a cigar. I would make martinis or girlie drinks.

I have gotten past J making a chocolate cake and rubbing it on her lips trying to tempt me with a kiss. I actually walked into a Cold Stone Creamery last night and didn't ask for a sample or take a taste of the one that was ordered. I walk into Starbucks and only get a simple cup of coffee. Even when they made my favorite one for me as I waited in line, thinking I would be having it, I made them throw it down the drain. (Painful, I know)

But its Friday night and I want a cocktail. A glass of wine? A rum and diet coke? A vodka with that crappy ass sugar fee cranberry juice?

These are all carb friendly options available to me. But only when I get past my two weeks.

Supposedly - drinking causes you blood sugar to spike and leads to snacking.

I don't want a snack, I want a drink. I want a drink on my back porch sitting in the hottub.

I want a cocktail and I want it badly.

I haven't had any caffeine for a few hours and I am gonna get something as soon as I leave here maybe it will subside my shakes, my sweats and my tic.

I need a drink? Out of everything that I have taken from my life in the past 5 days. Drinking a stupid glass of wine is freaking me out?

Am I a drunk?

Therefore I am?