7 year itch

As an Aquarius - I get bored easily. I lose my drive and vigor.

Its like that for everything in my life. I get very excited about a project - then I lose interest.

Now saying that - on the other hand - I really try not to quit. Once I commit myself to something - I will try really hard to stand by that thing.

I throw myself into what ever that something is....

From husbands - to work - to drinking and smokin'.

I figure - well, you made the decision - now your stuck with it.

I don't know if it stems from my childhood. When I was young my mother let me choose my very own wallpaper for my room. Being a little girl - I picked a flower theme. A huge field of daisies and other foliage lined my walls. These flowers were still on my walls when I left my house and when my parents sold the house - yep - the flowers were still there.

As a teen - I tried to cover the flowers with various posters and artwork - but they were still there - there was no masking or hiding my decision.

Now as an adult - I still try to mask the flowers - but these flowers have been replaced with other decisions.

So cutting thru all the flower talk - I get seven year itch.

Approximately every seven years - I need a change. I need something to excite me. Something to make me want to get up and greet the day with a huge grin.

This mainly occurs with my job. I thought about it last night and every job I have held has lasted about 7 years.

As many of you know - I have become very unhappy with my job. From my friends that have left and new employees that remain - I don't like it here anymore.

I looked in the classifieds yesterday and I was taken aback at how useless I am. I crow about the Apprentice and how the Street Smart teams kicks the arse of the Book Smarts team. But - with every ad I read - a degree of sometype is necessary if you want to work for someone.

I open them with excitement - I can do PR - I can sell. But - I cannot do it at that company without a degree or a severe pay cut.

So then I think of the things that would excite me - dreams of mine that would make me feel important and totally incorporate all the things I love to do. Problem is - I just don't know how to go about doing them. I have no experience in those things except being a consumer.

So - do you risk everything and fly by the wire and hope that you can make it? Or - do you just sit back and wish...


...While you are scratching.